The other night, E woke up about seven times, asked me to sing to her about five times, insisted I clean her ears about three times and cried that her sheets were wrinkled and dangerous to her health, once. Total hours of mama sleep for that night–approximately three.
Yes, motherhood is awesome. But hey! She did wake up past five am that day, so I really shouldn’t be complaining. (5:03 to be exact. Yeeeees! Seriously, the difference between seeing 4:59 and 5:03 on your clock when you wake up is just…unexplainable.)
Still, living on so little sleep all the time does make me exhausted and grouchy. And who wants to be around someone like that? Definitely not me. Poor E though, she has no choice but to deal with me day in and day out. It’s not good for either of us. So I figure, the best way for me to get over sleepless nights is to go outside. Something about being out and about just sort of resets my mood. Even if it means that I have to carry my little girl 95% of the time.
So even though it’s about a million degrees outside with humidity levels that threaten to make you feel like you’re choking in a sauna, outside we go.
Here are a few shots from our walk through Ebisu the other day.
Right now they have an igloo-shaped installation on display called The Love Letter Project. The air-conditioned dome is a planetarium-type space with images of flowers and Japanese calligraphy swirling about. It was very cool but I only managed to get one shot before I started to feel nauseous. (Damn my motion sickness.)
And let me just finish this post by adding that although the bad nights make me want to scream and curl up in a fetal position, there are little nuggets of baby love that my little girl showers me with during those long hours that makes everything worthwhile.
Like the other day, after a particularly long bout of crying, she surprised me with a “Mommy, I love you sooooo much!” It’s one of her go-to phrases that’s sure to get a smile from me. And last night she whispered “itsumo arigatou” (which basically means, “thank you always for everything”) just as she was about to fall asleep.
Yeah. I know I’ve got it pretty good.