“I never had that many friends growing up, so I learned to be OK with just me, just me, just me, just me. And I’ll be fine on the outside.“
The other day, I sat at the kitchen table with E on my lap, listening to this sad, beautiful song by Priscilla Ahn. We weren’t just randomly listening to this song though. We were actually watching the trailer for Studio Ghibli’s newest movie, When Marnie Was There, a haunting story of the friendship between two girls–one of them, a ghost. (The trailer that we were watching can be seen here.) It’s the first time that a completely English theme song is used in the Japanese version of one of their films. The film is directed by Hiromasa Yonebayashi, the director behind 2010’s Arietty (Hayao Miyazaki announced his retirement last year).
Now, I haven’t seen the movie yet (it’s going to hit theaters here in Japan on July 19th), but I’m sure the film will feel a little different than the other Ghibli films because of the English music. I hope it’ll be different in a good way, because this song and its lyrics brought tears to my eyes. It was like listening to my heart…
Not having many friends growing up. Being okay with being alone. Always feeling like you’re on the outside. Never really fitting in, and being okay with that. But sometimes feeling lost and confused, and sometimes realizing that no, you aren’t alright. And you cry, and you cry. And no one sees that part of you, because you look fine on the outside.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to see the film any time soon (E hasn’t been to a movie theater yet and I’m pretty sure she wouldn’t be able to sit through an entire movie unless it’s Anpanman or My Neighbor Totoro), but I look forward to seeing how this beautiful song fits into the ever enchanting Ghibli world.